Heartbreak

Just a quick update. I just found out that Christina is being adopted by a Russian family. I don't know what to feel right now. I am kind of in shock, heartbroken, and numb. I know God has a plan and has this designed already and I am at peace with that. It is just hard to understand why we would be allowed to fall in love with her already so I am just trying to wrap my mind around that. We will always pray for her and her life regardless. So we will now go back to the waiting stage. I am just praying that our loss of Christina does not hold us back from falling in love with a new child or two. I am happy that Christina has a family that wants her and happy that now more children can be adopted but at the same time I grieve a daughter which was loaned to us for such a short time. We just bought her bedroom furniture yesterday so I think we might wait on stuff like that next time.